Written for today’s short affair prompt at Section VII.
Summary: In which Napoleon realizes that kicking a bad habit is harder than it looks–but that having a loyal partner helps a lot.
Notes:
There are two versions of this piece. This is the light slash
version (also cross-posted to AO3). There is a gen version on my
dreamwidth if you’d prefer reading that.
The two blurbs are around 95% similar.
Illya was watching silently with their cat, Baba Yaga, as
Napoleon proceeded to turn the apartment upside-down as he upended drawers
stuffed with odds and ends in his search for the cigarettes that he had asked
Illya to hide. He had been trying to
kick the habit and had enlisted Illya’s help for this specific quest, and Illya
had agreed, having wanted Napoleon to kick the habit for some time now. But the optimistic beginning had given way to
withdrawal cravings—something that Illya had warned him about.
Napoleon had assumed that the withdrawal cravings were
something he could easily handle, in spite of Illya’s reminders that this
wasn’t an evening at the casino (“All the luck in the world won’t change the
body’s natural response…”), and it was only after they had set in that Napoleon
realized the full fury of a body’s betrayal of itself.
His search for the cigarettes that Illya had hidden was
coming up empty, as well; neither Illya nor the cat had moved from the couch as
they watched. Obviously, Illya felt for
Napoleon, and yet, he knew that if Napoleon relapsed into smoking again, trying
to quit the next time would be even more difficult; it was why Napoleon had
decided to go cold turkey in the first place, feeling as though that trying to
reduce the number of times he smoked would only lead to him putting off the
final day.
At least, that was what he’d thought then; now, it didn’t
seem like such a bad idea.
“Okay,” he sighed, mopping the sweat from his brow. “Maybe I should have gone with the gradual decrease
method after all. Illya, give me my
cigarettes.”
But Illya didn’t budge.
“Napoleon,” he said, gently. “Though I did warn you about the cravings,
you agreed that you would attempt to hold out as long as you could.”
“This is it,” Napoleon insisted. “This
is as long as I could. Cigarettes,
please?”
“Napoleon…”
“What do you want me to do!? Beg!?”
Illya arched an eyebrow, clearing imagining Napoleon on his
knees.
“Oh, my God, you do…” Napoleon groaned, facepalming. “Illya, please don’t do this to me… What did you do with my cigarettes!?”
“I considered keeping them in the kitty litter,” Illya
admitted. “But Baba Yaga would not have
liked the smell, and besides, you would have run out and bought more–”
“…I can still do that now,” Napoleon realized, and he
headed for the door, stopping as he felt his empty pocket. “…Where’s my wallet?” He looked back and saw Illya looking back at
him serenely. “Oh, for the love of–!”
“Relax,” Illya said, pulling both Napoleon’s wallet and his
cigarette case from his own pockets; Baba Yaga caught a whiff and bolted from
Illya’s lap. “To continue this would be
too childish. We are both grown
adults. Not only that, we are both
trained enforcement agents…” He paused,
briefly, as Napoleon reclaimed both items from him, and immediately pulled out
a cigarette from the case; Baba Yaga, who had still been watching, now
flattened her ears back in disapproval.
“You are one of the best enforcement agents I have ever met, Napoleon. You are a hero and a good man—that is innate
in you. But you are also a strong
man—that is from your own training, having shaped yourself to that way. You have defeated so many enemies thanks to
your inner strength. That is why I
believe you can defeat this, too.”
His words had the desired effect; Napoleon had been lifting
the cigarette to his mouth while looking for his lighter, and had stopped upon
Illya’s last statement.
“You have an endurance that was ranked among the highest in
your Survival School records,” Illya continued.
“Not just physical endurance, but mental endurance, as well; you were
able to completely resist all of the known forms of hypnosis and brainwashing
in THRUSH’s bag of tricks. Do you not
realize the amount of mental strength that is required to achieve that? THRUSH once succeeded in brainwashing me, and
yet they have failed with you! Even when
they use fear gas or other substances to play on your emotions, you still
manage to remain true to yourself!”
Napoleon continued to stare at the tiny, white object in
his hand. It was true; he had great
mental strength against the very worst that THRUSH had to offer. So how was this tiny cigarette able to
control him so well?
“Even with the nicotine withdrawal having made you
irritable, never once did you raise your voice to me,” Illya continued. “Even when I was being purposefully
difficult—you begged and pleaded and showed your exasperation, but you refused
to show me any hostility for my part in your frustrations. I have heard tales of others suffering from
the withdrawal symptoms who have driven their loved ones to tears from their
irritability. So, you see, you are
already more in control than you realize.”
He gently tugged on Napoleon’s sleeve, pulling him down
onto the sofa beside him.
“I can help you,” Illya said. “I know you think the world of me. If I gave you an ultimatum—that the lips that
touched cigarettes could never touch me, I could get you to drop that cigarette
right now. But I only wish to use that
as a last resort—for there are other ways to help you that can rely on your
inner strength. For example, I can word
that ultimatum differently and make it an invitation instead. Napoleon… I can show you something else you
can do with your lips…”
He suddenly pulled Napoleon in close and kissed him. Napoleon hesitated a moment, and then dropped
both the cigarette and the case, which spilled its contents on the floor. He didn’t notice, instead wrapping his arms
around Illya and kissing him back. As
they carried on, Baba Yaga sniffed at the cigarettes, hissed at them, and, with
several swipes of her paw, sent them under the couch.
Some time later, as the cat was contentedly attacking her
scratching post, the cigarettes still remained forgotten as Napoleon and Illya
continued to distract themselves on the couch.
Napoleon was stronger than he realized. And he had Illya lending him his strength, as
well.
He would get the
best of this.